Posted by annierose on February 12, 2007, at 17:18:01
In reply to Re: Two short therapy dreams ..., posted by Honore on February 12, 2007, at 10:14:53
Thanks again for taking the time to think so throughly about this.
I had a real session with my t this morning and we worked through some of this.
My head is swirling with so much information so I'll try to be as brief as possible. I told my T again how criticize I felt over her comment about my children's lives and about the new dream.
T: You mentioned my tone sounded critical and I'm sorry. I had a cold so maybe that added to my mood. But I actually was giving you a compliment. I was pointing out how as an adult you made different choices for yourself and your children. (we discussed this some - - - then)
I think that automatic feeling that pops up as soon as something feels critical goes back to how you were brainwashed as a child that you didn't matter. So either you stayed in your room to avoid the fray or if you joined your family, you were teased and criticized. With that as the backdrop of the way you view the world, it's "the" reason you are in therapy. If that didn't happen to you, you wouldn't be here. I see my job as helping to de-brainwash that chatter.
I told her how sad that made me feel, hearing her say that. She said that I had empathy for myself, and that is a good thing.
We talked about all 3 dreams. She agreed that the spiky teen could represent the rebellious me. She asked me a lot of questions about cancer and my feelings around cancer. I think you and Daisy did a better job of figuring the dreams out than she did! And maybe my t is interested in the dreams, but wants me to come up with my own intrepretations.
She apologized again that I sat with these emotions over the weekend. I wanted to say, "What else is new?" Don't we always?
I don't think it's her. I know this is my stuff coming to therapy.
>>>Sometimes these "average" moments hold a lot of suppressed emotion<<< --- Isn't this the truth!!
I won't pull away from her forever. I have done that before and came back. I'm just doing the push/pull part right now and I wish I could snap out of it. I doing better - thank you.
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