Posted by Iwillsurvive on March 31, 2007, at 21:14:54
To me it helps calm things down.
To me it brings me back.
To me I know I am alive.
To me it externalizes internal pain.
To me it serves me right.
To me it makes me know I am tough.
To me it means ALOT.
To me when its a bad one, and they stitch me up, I am being nurtured. They are caring for me. I feel cared for. They are caring for this body.
Sometimes it feels like I am letting the bad drip out of me.
Sometimes its just a movie and I not even there.
But I take care.
Its better than fighting w/others, hurting others, getting hurt.
There is minimal risk w/SI.
Though sometimes I punch trees, walls, rocks. Then there is some risk. I keep a tight fist, straight wrist, haven't to my knowledge broken anything.
But its better than death, or rape, or murder.
Better than addiction to drugs.
Better than psychosis from drugs.
So really, its not so bad is it?
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