Posted by gazo on April 2, 2007, at 21:18:22
In reply to Re: one down one to go .._Dearest Gazo..!, posted by Scentedgarden on April 2, 2007, at 11:53:52
Omg SG, i have tears in my eyes, but in a good way. What sweet things to say! How did you know i could use the boost today? I had a horrible day at work, a lot of long hours down the tube. I am tired and drained. You just made the whole day seem like it was all worth it.
Having said that, i think you get the best of me here maybe. It's an artificial environment. i always try hard to be good to people, but there is just something wrong with me somehow. i freak people out or something. i am a freak. yup, a freak. i don't know what it is i do that makes people hate me or not want to be friends with me. But it's too consistent to just be everyone else and not me. Maybe it's something about me in person rather than online?
Generally i feel like some kind of monster or freak. i told my T that i was a freak and he started writing something down...so i laughed outloud because i thought he was writing down that i was a freak! Lol! He thought that was pretty funny too.
> "I very much doubt anyone would hate you if they knew the real you."
i don't know about that SG. A lot of people hate me. i tried to do something just recently.. and i was worried a friend's feelings would be hurt, so i did my best to work around that and i muddled the whole thing up. The friend got hurt anyway and now she hates me. Sent me the most horrible emails.
you are a gem!!! i am very sorry i missed you that night in chat. I'd love to get to know you too.:o)Thanks for making my whole week. This is much better than the hate-email i got all day.
>smiles to you from Scentedgarden... hugs too* *p.s. this week will fly by, and before you know it, mit'll be the weekend and you'll be going to appt. I was on fortnightly for at first and more recently..so I speak from my own experience.. The time really does begin to fly... I hope it will be the same or similar for you..! P.P.s. I'd love to get to know you..! You seem very witty, intelligent, quick, full of life, charming, interesting, i could go on and on ...but to suffice to say for now ...Yes I certainly would like to know the real you, and I'm sure as sure csn be anyone who does is blessed and priveleged.. Take care of yourself for the week ahead...be kind to yourself as if you were being kind to someone you like very very much... (thats just my encouraging words to you, obviously you can tell me to mind my own business lol...hahah and skidaddle offski...lol... It's all good..!!!!!! bye bye sg
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