Posted by gazo on April 18, 2007, at 9:08:11
In reply to Today's Session, posted by jammerlich on April 17, 2007, at 22:58:23
The touch i understand.. i don't really remember the last time anyone touched me for any reason... maybe at xmas? it gets so touch does freak me out... want it but can't bear it.
i so wish you weren't in such pain sweetie. i have come to care about you quite a lot. The lot life has dealt you is just plain $hitty. No bones about it.
It's not a surprise, and you are not flawed or weird, that you don't know what you need or that you want comfort from your T but can't ask. Your definition of the world around you unraveled. It takes time to reconstruct. Not being able to get what you need or needed is the central issue, don't you think? If you had that all solved you probably would be in a very different mental space indeed. i am examining that idea myself because i have a similar situation with a different issue.
if you felt capable of it... i think printing out your post and giving it to her might help. If not, well, maybe you could just write down that you have trouble asking for and accepting help... ask her to ask you more questions maybe?
i wish i could be there and we could make irish coffees and b*tch about relationships. We could cut up photos or draw faces on people who give us grief. Getting a little mad helps.
do something nice for yourself today..ok? please?
much love and peace
poster:gazo
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