Posted by Honore on July 20, 2007, at 13:05:36
In reply to Self-Delusion and losing my mind, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 19, 2007, at 15:08:30
Llurpsie, you aren't losing your mind; you aren't a loser-- gosh how can you say that about a friend of mine? someone who always makes sense, and is really a good person, and is working so hard at making a worthwhile life?
It must be that Montana air- much too healthy and no particulates, and you haven't adapted to being able to breathe. Or maybe the dislocation, and uncertainty of taking this next, unknown step, into the next phase of your life.
I used to think I was losing my mind, too. I read all sorts of books on madness and insanity and psychosis, and noticed all the similarities between me and the people who populated them-- and to the theories and general remarks of the authors.
No one who makes as much sense as you always do-- who has so much to say-- and whose struggles are so meaningful-- can be losing their mind. That's what I finally realized after all that reading. Similarities are everywhere to be noticed-- and they can be terrifying, and they can rise up and seem to suggest that you're the same or about to become the same as some fearful thing, but they don't constitute a parallel or real identity.
Maybe in all this discontinuity and self-doubt, you can remember that these things sometimes come in swarms and overwhelm us-- and cause us to ask really scary questions and to have scary thoughts. But you do have a solid core-- one that can be felt in everything you write--that's not going to abandon you.
Honore
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