Posted by sunnydays on August 6, 2007, at 21:54:25
In reply to Re: Really sad, posted by Maria01 on August 6, 2007, at 21:37:05
Uggghhh.... now you sound like my T! :) He's always telling me things will be good for me when I don't want to do them. I detest calling people. I'm sure he'll remember why I'm calling once he picks up, I'm just worried of catching him off-gaurd if he forgets to expect my call.
I try not to have these thoughts, but I can't seem to get rid of them. I wish he were here. I miss him so much. What is it I miss, though? Just his presence, I guess. Knowing that someone cares about me. Knowing someone will be there to help me if I'm having a hard time. Knowing that someone knows me more deeply than anyone has ever known me before, even myself. Knowing that he won't hurt me or reject me, no matter what I say (well, I suppose maybe there could be something I could say, but nothing I'd realistically ever say). Knowing there's someone that truly has my best interests in mind, even when I don't have my best interests in mind.
Wow, maybe I should tell that stuff to my T. I've never been able to think up that stuff that clearly and articulately before. Thanks Maria!
sunnydays
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