Posted by Quintal on August 29, 2007, at 5:16:04
In reply to Re: Pseudo-neurotic Schizophrenia » Quintal, posted by RealMe on August 28, 2007, at 20:52:30
The only person I could/would realistically approach for therapy is my old counselor from college. I live in the UK and the NHS psychology services are pretty poor, and the waiting lists are often several years long, and treatment times short. I once had an hour of what I think was Psychodynamic therapy of some kind, but the most she could offer me was four one hour sessions, and we both agreed that just wasn't going to do anything useful, so we terminated therapy at the first session and 'donated' my allotted time to someone else. I'd waited about eight months for that appointment, and I've already told you about the CBT. There may well be some private therapists in my area but I can't afford them.
I'm on the 'Notification of Registration' register, so all doctors have to notify my GP and a central monitoring agency if I attempt to register at their practice. I think it's a way of limiting drug-seeking behavior (I once forged a Klonopin prescription). So going to another GP for different meds isn't an option. I think it would be a pretty borderline thing to do anyway :-)
The borderline diagnosis was one I'd always tried to avoid, substituting it with more 'innocent' ones such as Social Anxiety Disorder and Bipolar II. I feel almost a sense of relief at acknowledging that yeah, that's my problem, and I'm getting better. I see a lot of borderline traits around me, and it's clear there are some in recovery, some working towards recovery, some are unaware, and some doing their level best to avoid recovery. I hope that by at least acknowledging I have these traits and attempting to overcome them I'm on the path to recovery.
Q
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