Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 31, 2007, at 11:17:49
In reply to Re: do I talk about my family of origin? » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by muffled on August 30, 2007, at 22:11:20
Daisym is right. I do need to create safety and a backup plan. I think that is falling into place neatly by now.
I remember my first T used to ask me to FEEL stuff all the time. Told me that my depression was a consequence of not allowing myself to have emotions. So, whenever I talked about hard stuff I had a LOT of emotional messiness. I was a wreck. The babble archives will attest to that.
Since then therapy has been easier. not easy, but easier. I still miss the first T though. He was pretty tough on me. Part of me likes that. Kind of forcing me to go the next step. But that was designed as short-term therapy. Maybe the course of treatment is different now that I'm in long-term therapy. I am still learning how this all works.
I will respond to you all personally next time I have a computer available. I'm on vacation this weekend. Had some problems at the airport. It triggered me and I found myself having that "trapped" in space feeling. Didn't feel safe. I HATE that. like I'm preparing to go to the gallows or something. I used to LOVE flying. Well, that's what 2.5 years of long-distance marriage will do to someone.
I forgot my knitting too. That's my typical agitation activity. that and pacing.
I'm gonna go back to pacing now.
take care you guys
love,
-Ll
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