Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on September 3, 2007, at 20:47:04
In reply to But You're Worth It :-) (nm) » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by JoniS on September 1, 2007, at 11:13:18
I was in the airport this evening. Something about
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...being in the airport always gives me a lot of psychological discomfort. It's almost like I have a little split of consciousness5tttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt[=]gpoi
between the person I am at arrival and the person I am at departure. I ended up journalling on both legs of the trip and there is a lot of fear and anxiety. I wrote a letter to my T that I will *attempt* to read to him tomorrow. It will be the first time I have ever brought in anything to him. I was writing it and dissociating big time, but kept pen to paper and didn't look up until I got out a little more sh*t on paper.
Will I be able to talk about this sh*t? A big part of me wonders whether he believes in my story. He doesn't use the same words as my old T. Using different labels makes it seem like I'm not telling the same story. Like I'm false somehow.
I don't know. what a mess.
time for little pills.
-Ll
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