Posted by rskontos on September 30, 2007, at 21:46:34
I didn't know which thread this might go under so I started a new one. I had the weirdest thing happen twice. I am new to the dissociative DX. I am not sure if it MPD yet. My T and I haven't gotten that far but I know I have two distinct somethings. No names but I am not always in control in social settings. Sometimes I have memories of what happened and sometimes I wake up not knowing what happened. So twice I tried to access those memories of something I did not remember doing. And bam, it was a physical barrier or wall that made me sick. I mean ill really ill. I saw stars, I feel like I might vomit, I saw things in a tunnel, kinda of like dejava but not, I had to lay down, I felt sick for about 30 minutes after. Now the neuro has been treating for partial seizures but I know I have had what I call black outs for years where I wake up from situations not knowing anything that went on. The T thought this was dissociative disorder. Not seizures because they never happen at home. My daughter has seizures that do happen at home, they are real. I have had neuro workups. But still I am not really sure. The neuro has me on topamax for the partials but the dosage I need to be on I can't really tolerate, memory loss is bad and well with everything else.
Anyway, the thing that happen, I was wondering has anyone else ever had that happen? It has happened twice. I did it again to make sure I wasn't imagining it. I need to talk to the T about and this week I go to the neuro but I worry she will only think about a medical issue and I don't think this medical. I have had tons of work ups done. I am healthy. Not mentally but physically. Any suggestions. Oh I am asking her for a p-doc referral. I am having a time finding one.
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