Posted by Dory on October 1, 2007, at 14:21:56
In reply to Re: horrible things.. triggers and more, posted by Wittgenstein on September 30, 2007, at 19:51:14
witty, you are so much stronger, despite your worries of perceived weakness at times. You have gained wisdom and insight i see. My childhood has traumas, but none via my parents really.. so i don't have to face challenging my ideal parent image/illusion so much. Later in childhood there were definitely problems. My "events" came from outside the home, but also from a person in a position of trust and authority to a child. One big thing i struggle with is that i told.. as in i told my T... i was never supposed to tell. And i haven't even told him what happened.
it's sick. it's horrible and i feel ashamed to say that i wish they had beaten me or did some other thing which seems more "accepted" as abuse.
but you are right... victims of any sort of abuse, no matter how blatant often have trouble defininf it as such.
this is a hard road. i knew it would be. i began it once before and had it blocked externally. so for years i knew i had to face this. a little bit of ignorance when starting therapy is probably a good thing, it allows one to wade in slowly before one becomes aware of deep water... i stood there looking straight at the deep water knowing full well.
thank you witty... you are on your way to becoming a very wise lady. i commend you on your persistance
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