Posted by rskontos on October 8, 2007, at 12:47:28
In reply to Re: P.S. » muffled, posted by antigua3 on October 8, 2007, at 10:45:36
I have been trying to break it to my husband gently. I printed stuff off the internet and he read it. No comment. He said go to therapy and try to get well. He is trying but when I comment on Sat I think about my inner child, I forgot who I was talking to, he looked at me strange but didn't say anything. So who knows if he is ready. Again, I have spent my life worrying about everyone else, and I am to tired, and anxious to continue. Besides, I think that it is all coming one way or another.
I am one that has lost HUGE chunks of time and been wearing different clothes. I have had clothes in my closet I don't really remmeber buying or vaguely remember. Maybe picked it up right before switching.
Also, my T said the migraines or headaches are part and parcel of switching. Another thing I am remembering is that research has shown that those with DID use a significant larger portion of the brain than most. And that whatever caused the DID to develop is unique to the person that you can't teach it and the population is so small because of the degree of intelligence needed for brain to be able to section itself off and still maintain functioning parts. She said that it tramuma that causes it must occur prior to the age of 5 for the most part or usually a different DX will usually result. All of this made so much sense. For me, it helped to understand this and I think she knew I needed to know this with all my hunting for information because what I had found had not given me enough specifics. Again, sorry if I keep throwing things out, just that this is how I am remembering them.
The hunk of time lost has been troubling over the years, and this is why I chose to hide everything from everyone I knew. They are called fugues. I must use the right word I guess. Anyway, they are frightening at first, but now I am kinda of used to it. Mine are evoluting. I don't always disappear, I am sort of still around and have some memory of what happens now. Never before. I still can dissociate too. So I guess that goes too as you integrate. I am not sure I want that to go away.........I must think about that. I am feeling strange today. Some bad thoughts I think from one of the the others. Unsettling.
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