Posted by rskontos on October 24, 2007, at 13:23:59
In reply to Re: Twinleaf you ok? » twinleaf, posted by RealMe on October 23, 2007, at 21:57:42
well, therapy was on hold a week while T out of town. Monday sessions was good I had a panic attack right before I went and I was extremely aggitated before I went. She noticed and we talked about the panic attack and what triggered it. A real estate lady that works on the neighborhood triggered a frightening memory of my mother and I went into a panic. I couldn't calm myself afterward. My inner kids didn't want therapy. They had been getting me to doubt myself anyway. T and I discussed this plus somethings she had said about my dx that I misunderstood. She told me to always come to her about things she says that I or anyone misunderstands. And if I don't believe her to talk to her. If I misinterpret her intentions to please talk. We talked about her not calling me back and how that ate into my trust for her and how bad she felt. WE talked about hugging and my inability to do so. She said she would never just try to hug me if I wanted one to tell her to ask for it. We discussed my trust issues or the lack of my trust. I reavealed more of my memories. I misunderstood her when she told me not to try to remember more. So I told her more, I told her about my conversation with dear old (Not) Dad. We had a good session in that we talked about lots that bothered me and cleared the air but it was an extremely emotional session and I don't do well with those, I cried alot. I don't like to cry or rather one of me doesn't. She gets angry. I told her I had been trying to smash the voices and she no don't do that. She said we were building a safety net for me and everyone. So I am thinking it went well but keep thinking about all the work and how my family doesn't think there is anything work. She says it is ok to keep it from them for now. I am very confused. and on top of I can't hardly do anything at home. I wander from room to room. I mean I do the barest miminal of stuff. Thanks for asking and sorry Twinleaf for stealing your Thread for a moment. rskontos
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