Posted by B2chica on October 25, 2007, at 8:26:23
In reply to I be OK, always am. (nm), posted by muffled on October 25, 2007, at 1:05:24
Muffled. ok, i KNOW you said "you'll be ok, you always are". but that bothers me.
i guess i'm finally on the OTHER side of the fence, cuz i KNOW i say that ALL the time...to my DH, to my family , friends, T and pdoc....
but it concerns me when i hear YOU say it.
because what i hear is "i'm miserable but i don't deserve comfort, i'll get over it in time cuz i have to, don't bother with me i'm not worth it."now...keep in mind i could be projecting here. but i just REALLY want you to know that ya, ok, so you will survive this, but that doesn't mean to you to suffer while your on this journey.
you will be ok, but you are suffering Now! and DESERVE help and comfort!what you wrote about IS scary, and isolating....so i REALLY want you to know that though you may be scared, you are NOT alone!
We ALL are here. if you want we can go hide in a closet and huddle together and wait till the bad passes for a while i will be RIGHT there with you.
what you are going through IS confusing. Whenever i start getting really confused over "issues", it just begins to snowball and before i know it i can't even remember how to write out a check. so when i feel this confusion starting i try to remember a quote that i read. its by carl jung and says:
"The pendulum of the mind oscillates between sense and nonsense, not between right and wrong."
and for some reason....i GET it. and it helps.
i think because i argue that what was done was wrong, and then another 'part' of me speaks up and says no it was not..."I" was wrong...and self-deprication begins.
but when i remember that quote it stops that blame game. and all i need to do is decipher sense and nonsense feelings.ok...i'm ranting. it probably won't make sense cuz i'm kinda messed up in the head. but it really helps me at these times...and...i can only hope that it may give even a little comfort to you right now.
(((((((((((MUFFLED))))))))))))
-thinking of you.b2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:791264
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20071022/msgs/791298.html