Posted by rskontos on December 7, 2007, at 13:53:39
In reply to Re: Any ideas what this might mean/possible triggers » rskontos, posted by muffled on December 7, 2007, at 12:57:08
Muffy, I am sorry it makes you want to run and hide. I am trying to get a plan an dI have a peep that usually is the Boss but she is staying back and I don't know why. T asked the same question where is she. I dont know. T wants me to invite all to a sit down, like a conference of my peeps for a boundary session but she says it needs to be when I am ready and it needs to be a place in my head where I feel safe so I have to create it and I need to feel like working on that. So it may be a while. She says after a while I will be able to control them better. Right now I just make them go and that is why they come and go and don't work with me. She says I must when they come not make them go but it hard. I think I will email her bout this....Specially since it is a first time they do this. Try to show me something. You did help me to let her know she you are smart girl.....
I am not really trying to dig they are just trying to show. I think it is cause my son is a teenager and he sets off the teen in me. We fight sometimes like teenagers cause she gets nervous around him. Sometimes I have to fight to be adult around my son. That is what is hard. There are at lest 2 my son makes uncomfortable and they hover to fight back if he and I get into disputes. Which with a 15 year old son disputes between parents and teenagers are often. It is hard when my H is out of town so much and I can't hand off to him. That is why this week and last week I am so unside down. I think. My T agrees. But she thinks in a way it is good. She is wondering if they agree with son or is trying to protect me. Right now it isnt clear. They like his music so when he starts playing it I can feel them. So that is it.
My relationship with her is still complicated. I realize only parts are ok with her. Trust not yet really. Some say no way. She is reliable. She says last time that she is there for me there the longhaul. She says none of me can run her off and I switched into bad one last time and ranted and raved and cried. Might have been two there. It exhausted me and I was very uncomfortable. I cried all the way home. but T thought it was good what happened. She is not scared. I am not her first. She has about 15 other patients like this. One is still in denial of her parts. So no this isn't new to her. She does want me to have a plan and she tells it too me over and over again. I am not doing it yet but she understands it is hard and parts of my resists. They are not ready.
Sorry I upset you. I will be ok so will you. Man if just you and I got together we could be a huge party alone.....LOL
You take care too....thanks for the support and encouragement. rk
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