Posted by star008 on December 10, 2007, at 16:38:46
In reply to OK OK OK OK OK, can someone tell ikid its OK?, posted by muffled on December 10, 2007, at 13:57:34
it s okay muffs.. it really is ok.. she is scared but nothng can hurt her now. you don't have to let anyone hurt her,, and u are not going to hurt her either. you know she is scared and in pain.
hang on.. hold it together muffled.. your kids need you..Sometimes it really pissed me off that I couldn't fall aprt.. My kids needed me and they didn't need a f..cked up mom to screw them up.. You can do this.. FAke your way through it for them.. Sometimes it is hard to do for yourself but you others depending on you.. Yeah, I know it s...cks but you love them more than anything..
I will tell u where I am at now muffled when I have more time later on this evening. It is hard, it s..cks but what choice do you have, really?? We have the right to do alot of things in our lives but what we don't have the right to do is to f....ck up someone else's lives, (our kids).
I used to get pissed sometimes that I could'nt just fall aprt or die cuz I had to be here for them.. Dumb , huh?? But it did piss me off sometimes.. I felt like I was stuck here against my will for someone else.. I still am really,, Just cuz they are grown doesn't mean I got the right to screw them up now either.hang in there girl.. i know you can do it.. quit drinking Muffled.. I know you can't see it right now but it really does screw up your thinking bad..makes it hard to hold it together and think right.. I quit 12 years ago.. Slipped up a few times but now it kind of makes me sick.. thank god, huh?? I hae a few now and then but too much makes the Ikids rear up.. they either go nuts or they cry and want to die..
I hope you don't think I am preaching at you.. It is not meant that way at all. It is only cuz I have been exactly where u are..I could go there again, i know..just as f...cked up.. different place
big hugs>>>> from across the room;)
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