Posted by Nadezda on September 26, 2008, at 9:48:39
In reply to UPDATE, posted by Amanda29 on September 25, 2008, at 18:34:50
I had a phase when I read manuals and would see myself in the symptoms. I was always worrying that I had some syndrome that seemed very hopeless. But I don't think I really "had" any of those things. They're descriptions of some ways that people tend to act, but they really aren't diseases or diagnoses in the sense that anyone knows that they're not treatable or even has a way of treating them that works for everyone with the diagnosis.
But even if you are resistant or some Ts have found you hard to work with, that doesn't mean every T will get tired of you and drop you. It means that you need a T who can work with that issue. Lately my T's said that I resist help and frequently undermine the effectiveness of people who are trying to help me. But that doesnt mean that, as a therapist, he can't help me-- or that he doesn't want to bother.
You have a deep investment in the T that you're seeing-- and he has one in you. That has every chance of leading to your being able to work with whatever resistance or anger or fear you have of trying new things, or taking new risks.
I would forget about the diagnosis. You might be using it, as I did, to scare yourself, or keep yourself from trusting in the process. Rather, keep on working with your T as you have-- and perhaps discuss this feeling of resistance more. Over time, you and he can find a way to lessen it, and to make changes possible. It might take time-- or be at times difficult-- but your commitment and his are more important than any diagnosis.
Nadezda
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