Posted by muffled on November 4, 2008, at 14:53:25
In reply to Re: A bit disappointed » muffled, posted by Dinah on November 4, 2008, at 14:12:14
> Hmmm...
> The therapist I had as a preteen - Well, I didn't like him, but I suppose preteens don't like anyone.*totally!
> Biofeedback guy - Abrasive and rude. I'm sure he thought of himself as direct and no nonsense. I lasted a few sessions because I really wanted to do biofeedback and he was (and is) the only one in the city. The best I could say about him was that he was a good trial for my biofeedback relaxation. Every time he walked in the room, my blood pressure, pulse, etc. shot way up. He fussed at me for that.*so only a few sessions? My T still make some nervous and all switchy.But I settle some.
> Fluffybunny Psychologist - saw her for testing. Too soft.:-) Like your names! Ya I don't go for soft either.
> EMDR therapist - I don't remember her much, and I don't think I hated her exactly. But long term? Nope.*what was it that was detrimental? was it gender?
> T2 - Told me to grow up on our first (and last) session.
*ya....like I said, some bad T's out there... :-(
> T3 - Seemed to like me ok on the phone. Had some interesting things to say at first. She thought I looked odd and let me know it, fairly openly. She eventually told me to grow up, less directly than T2.*:-( That must have been hurtful :-(
> Hypnosis therapist - Hypnosis didn't work, but also she seemed a bit scattered and vague. Not a good match, I think.*LOL scattered and vague and a hypnotist!!!LOL, mebbe she hypnotizing herownself!!!
> pdoc from h*ll - Arrogant jerk, never listened.*I have not met many p-docs I have liked, and judging by others too, I am not alone in this...which isn't to say they all bad....I just don't like them.
> Dr. Just the facts ma'am - Didn't feel comfortable telling him much*a p-doc too? Not very sensitive seeming.
> Dr. Lurch (for want of a better name) - Scares me senseless*nuther p-doc? sorry you got scared
> Some too hard, some too soft. Only one just right.
* I STILL think there one out there for you, but you gonna have to fight to relationship with them! :-0
> I could tell him that I want to see someone about the phobia, and I think his desire not to put himself out will overcome any worries he had about my taking one session a week to someone else. But he knows me well too. He knows it wouldn't likely work out.*again, negative. Maybe the first second or third won't, but what bout the fourth? mebbe they would. But you goto go into it with the right attitude, be willing to put cards on table. Be up front bout attitudes and how you feeling bout how they respond to you. I know you got super radar, but mebbe sometimes its wrong?
Mebbe you'll find one you can work with.
But you may have to fight yourownself to get there...
> I think it's great you can work so well with someone you don't particularly care for. I know I can't. Unless I have positive feelings for someone, I'd be way too mistrustful.*ROFL, I DON'T truly trust my T!!! I tell her that too. We talk about that she NOT gonna hurt me, I say that I do not KNOW that for a FACT, but I allow as given her credentials and time here that its unlikely she would. She does EMDR, and I say NO WAY (I think she not think I ready anyhow). No way cuz I not trust NOboddy to mess w/anything that might take my control away. She says I(me) am in control, I say how can I beleive you?! She say, do you think I think your weird, I don't, and goes on and on bout how she don't etc, and I end up saying, ultimately, I do not know what T thinks(manoman I think I FRUSTRATE her BIG time that day!!!)she may think I weird and hiding it cuz it not THERAPUTIC for her to say she think I weird!
LOL! So I DO respect that she has knowledge that may be helpful to me, and I am certainly willing to talk to her, but I am not yet ready to trust her.
The biggest stumbling block to my therapy is myownself, and my own defenses and resistance. I think it will just take time to get past that.
I am, due to my previous positive T experinece, moving to a position of more trust a thousand times fatser than with my previous T, so there is hope.
Only prob is this T is a specialist and big bucks, and my medical coverage is going to end, so I may have to end T....so it may all never happen. WTF eh?
Least I can take care of mysownself and NOBODDY ever f*ck w/this body, I kill them first, so body OK, just I'd like to do better. I'd like to learn intimacy and trust. I'd like to be together enuf to help others. To do anything cept wallow.
Wanka wanka!
I think I have rambled haven't I?
Oh well.
Just I wish you well Dinah.
Hope I not bothering you any.
Muffled
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