Posted by obsidian on December 29, 2008, at 22:31:29
and I am not sure where it is all coming from...
I've been taking klonopin .5 every day and no more.
when I was with my family (just the last couple of days) I just took it a little earlier, but no extra.
and I am supposed to skip a dose once a week, but as anxious as I am I couldn't do it and had to take the klonopin earlier today too.
but for the whole day I've been anxious, until I took that pill (sweet freaking relief). I was so anxious that I didn't think it would work, but it has taken it down a notch.
I just took double my normal seroquel because this anxiety is mixed with irritability/agitation, and obsidian has to go back to work after 5 days off tomorrow and she is going to have to play well with others.my T is away, my pdoc is away, I just got done seeing my family, and it is back to my stupid *ss job which will surely send my anxiety level soaring again.
Today I did some errands, went shopping close to home (felt high anxiety in the store- had to get out), took a walk, used deep breathing. The content of my thoughts is all about my inadequacies, feeling trapped, feeling ashamed of myself, feeling angry, feeling hurt. I am having trouble getting away from it.
Sometimes, I've noticed, after I see my family I am anxious for a while after it, like it's left something with me and it's brewing inside me.
I haven't got the time though to fall apart now, I've got to keep it together.
sigh...I tried to cry in the shower today, but it wasn't enough.
poster:obsidian
thread:871356
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