Posted by LadyBug on March 29, 2009, at 23:45:50
In reply to Re: Daisym » LadyBug, posted by DAisym on March 28, 2009, at 23:34:40
I have to chuckle about your "visit". You do what you have to do. I'm sure it feels good to take care of yourself after taking care of everyone else for so many years. I'm in the same boat. I've been a care taker, enabler, peace maker etc. for so long it's an effort to re-think my thought process. I can do this!
I will take your advice, if I don't love it, I don't need it. I wish I didn't have more than I need, but I do have some "stuff" I won't have room for. I've given my daughter some of my nice big furniture. It makes me sad in some sense. I never imagined my life going this direction.
I was given some great advice today by my religious leader. He said "As soon as you get moved and settled in, put the past behind you! Start with a fresh start and show the world how strong you are, you can be an instrument to others that are struggling. You've been through more than most will ever go through and you made it." I like the "put the past behind you". What he meant is to forget about all the cruel things my husband has done to hurt me and our family. I know I can't erase them from my mind, I don't have an eraser that big!!! I have to let go of all of it, I don't have to forget it, but I can't allow it to continue to hurt me. I can't change any of it now or ever.
I feel a sense of freshness in my life. Maybe some of my depression will lift when I have some of the burdens lifted from me. My husband has nothing more he can take from me. I have nothing but "ME" and he can't take that from me ever again. I'm glad I have my 2 daughters, I'll have them forever and they are priceless.
Going slow...........good idea. Thanks Daisym!!
LadyBug
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