Posted by SLS on April 16, 2009, at 6:32:34
In reply to Re: I feel like I am losing my mind *trigger*, posted by Deneb on April 15, 2009, at 20:22:17
> Whatever I do, I absolutely cannot rely on Dr. Bob or Babblers to "save" me.
Now you have me scared.
I think you should talk more about this to a professional.
Yes, you DO have a plan.
Thinking about suicide so constantly is a prelude to a dangerous act when it is combined with impulsivity, anxiety, and anger. I bet you are beginning to think that your committing suicide in SF is inevitable, now that you have the notion that you are losing your mind You now have a justification for losing control of yourself.
I worry that your disappointment in Dr. Bob that you foresee as a possibility will make you VERY angry if he remains at a professional distance from you. It is this anger and the anxiety of being in a foreign place that I believe might produce a dangerous state of mind for you.
Right now, I can only hope that your candor in speaking about suicidal thoughts and feelings will allow you to reach out for help if you need it.
Right now, I don't trust that you are as far away from suicide as you claim to be.
You don't need my blessings to do anything in life. However, at this moment, I don't believe it is a good idea for you to go to SF.
You are doing an EXTRAORDINARY job at verbalizing your thoughts and feelings honestly. Please don't ever stop.
:-)
- Scott
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