Posted by TherapyGirl on April 17, 2009, at 20:04:02
In reply to Re: Too much pain **Trigger**, posted by muffled on April 17, 2009, at 11:11:53
<<I gonna let others know about love.
I gonna help others in pain.
I gonna share burdens.
I gonna make this world better in maybe only small tiny ways.
But I gonna make it better.
I gonna add good.>>You already do this, Muffly.
Thank you so much. You know I'm stubborn as hell and I'm not going to a new T. I really am not. I get that it's probably a good thing to do, but I just can't go through all that again. It took me four years to talk to this T. I don't have four years to spend in this hell. I really don't.
I don't know what I'm going to do, but I'm not going to therapy anymore after she leaves. I'm just all done.
It doesn't feel exactly like betrayal, but close. I do know that she cares about me. But I also know that my life is a house of cards, populated by people who are NOT my mother (T), not my lover, not my kids. I have pseudo people in my life. And they leave me. Because they have to go be with their real family.
Thank you for being a real friend in my pseudo world.
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