Posted by deerock on July 21, 2009, at 10:03:12
my relationship with my therapist has been rocky. im not sure if the analytical work is helping me. ive posted about some issues on here in the recent past.
yesterday, i told her she was dismissive of my need for help in controlling my food issues by suggesting i attend over eaters anonymous. i have been there and i really dislike it.
she said she recalls saying that it may be worth exploring. what i remember is that she did say that in one conversation. and when it came up again she said "so go to OA" in response to my frustration.
i became really pissed off. i said NO, you did not say that. you did say that at one point and at another point you dismissed what i said. she said that is not how i remember it. i got angry again and i said well youre remembering it WRONG. i guess i attacked her.
she shut down. she couldnt talk. and said "i have nothing to say at the moment." i said about this or in general? and she said "in general." the silence lasted all of 1 minute.
I am not sure what to make of this. she always tells me that im afraid she cannot handle my anger. and truthfully, i dont think many people can. but i feel like im encouraged to display it and when i did, i blew her out of the water for a moment.
im curious what your thoughts are on this. am i not supposed to be attacking my therapist if i get pissed off at her? is my attacking her a sign that i am right, she is a bad fit for me? i attack her pretty regularly. for the first time she even said she is happy to keep working with me but maybe another type of therapy would be better for me, one where i feel more held.
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