Posted by rskontos on July 26, 2009, at 13:48:29
maybe I am just so messed up on the inside but I don't let it show like others. I was amazed at the way some people acted at this concert. I thought to myself wow, how do they do that. Just let it all hang out for all to see.
I guess I realized maybe more people are messed up too, they just are unaware.
I don't know. But it was probably the first time I felt that comfortable in a crowd. I did dissociate for a brief spell but that was anticipated by myself. I knew I would so I just went with it and finally started to enjoy myself.
It was a weird experience but I see sometimes I am making some progress. At least I knew I was messed up but can hide it well. So many out there just don't see it.
So if you don't see it, are you not really messed up. ok I have confused myself.
rsk
I guess the problem with myself as I see it I can't handle stress like a pro anymore. I start to fall apart unless I dissociate. It is in these times I feel fragile. I hate fragile.
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