Posted by alexandra_k on August 8, 2009, at 8:37:12
In reply to Re: letting go, posted by alexandra_k on August 8, 2009, at 8:18:02
it would be nice to have an apartment. something low maintenance because i don't much like mowing lawns or whatever and would prefer not to have to deal with getting someone in to do it either. i think an apartment would be nice. something modern and clean.
it would be nice to live by a nice coffee shop, too. make getting coffee a morning routine. get to know some of the people doing that.
someplace where i don't need to learn to drive to get myself around. i'm not terribly adventurous. just want to get to the places i need to go reasonably conveniently. not one for novelty, really. novelty makes me anxious. makes me feel tired.
i think i'm actually happy by myself. it would be nice to keep up the gym and actually... at some point... actually feel happy about my body. it actually isn't so bad. just really untoned and a bit flabby at present but that is alterable. i could be happy with it, i think. if only i took better care.
a kitchen where i can experiment with making food and not have people looking over my shoulder 'what are you doing? why are you doing that?' take a bottle of wine and put on some music and have some fun with cooking. have some fun with clothes, too. with a bit more money and a body that i'm not hating quite so much.
families are expensive... why do people do it? i don't quite understand.
i think i'm okay by myself. i really think... i am. i just want to be happier by myself, really. that is what getting better means to me.
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