Posted by wittgensteinz on May 23, 2011, at 5:05:14
To those who care to read:
Sometimes I wonder whether many people read my posts. I'll be honest that I read certain poster's posts more carefully than others.
Daisym posted yesterday:
"This is how life works - no one keeps score and there are enough of us to support at different times, at different levels."I have to say that at this moment I disagree. I'm wondering whether psychobabble has become rather cliquey. I posted a few days ago in hope of support. Thankfully Dinah responded but she was alone in offering support. In fact when I post I've come to feel guilty because I worry that Dinah may feel compelled to respond so as to avoid the awkwardness of no-one responding.
What was and is a very painful time for me was if anything worsened by my efforts to reach out for support here and instead being steered clear of only to see a friendly thread emerge shortly after reassuring another poster that there are enough of us here to give support.
A similar thing happened to Deneb a while back, you may recall.
I think babble is special - perhaps at its essence is the fact that the posters are more intellectual, more critical and essentially more honest to others and about themselves compared to certain other e-communities. I will spare a parody of an un-named other community I have seen.
I guess I just feel a bit excluded or unworthy. I accept that that's something I feel in general (it's one of my complexes) but I can't but help recognise a cliquishness among certain circles of posters, without pointing fingers.
To steal from George Orwell - all babblers are equal but some are more equal than others. We are all worthy of support but it does appear that some are certainly more worthy than others.
I won't say I'm leaving babble as that's a little dramatic and I'm sure I'll come and read here again and maybe reply (not that it matters a whole lot what I say or do) - but my affection for babble is certainly declining. Back in 2007/2008 it was a great source of support but now it's not such a good place to count on people, unless you want to take advantage of the generosities of the small few.
Yes, this is an angry post. It's angry because I feel hurt by what I experience as a lack of caring/indifference from the most of you here.
Witti
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