Posted by trouble on April 22, 2002, at 22:39:36
In reply to Re: Not doing well :(, posted by Katt on April 22, 2002, at 22:12:04
> I cried, I screamed, I yelled, I kicked. I had a tantrum and then, finally, I cut. LOSER
Katt,
I don't know you, my name is trouble and all I do is push and lecture, so feel free to tell me to SCRAM if I get to close to the bone.I want to ask about the loser feelings, did they come after the cutting? Cause I've heard that cutting can help people end the tantrums, and calm them down, that's what I've heard, I don't know first-hand not being a cutter myself.
But if the cutting makes you feel worse about yourself I've heard of a technique that is almost as good as cutting, w/out all the self-hatred that can result from it.
Red ink, or red paint, anything that looks like blood, pour or paint it on the areas you want to cut, I HAVE tried this and it helped, just walking around the house dripping this ersatz blood all over my environment as evidence of my pain. I've heard bona-fide cutters say similar things, so it may be worth a try. I know the times I did try to cut myself I felt so bad about myself afterwards I couldn't go thru w/it. So sometimes I hold ice cubes in my hands, (IT HURTS!) or even plunge my head into a sinkfull of ice cubes and refrigerated water (UNBEARABLE!!).Also if you feel comfortable telling us where you are, physically, in the what city/state you may find some people on the board who are familiar w/ the social service resources in your area. In most large U.S. cities there are places for indigents to go who need fast professional help, just an idea, but no pressure if you don't feel safe revealing anything more than you have about your situation.
This is a nurturing place, filled w/ tireless and truly useful folks who will stick, come what may.
take care,
trouble
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