Posted by kara lynne on July 27, 2003, at 23:43:09
I hope I feel better when I get out of here.
I think I have body dysmorphic disorder. It sounds so trite to over-focus on the physical, but it feels awful to be doing it. I think it started with my mother who doesn't exist except as an image, which she is always hating and reflecting back to me. I remember her coming to pick me up at school in the 3rd grade and wanting her to look like the other mothers who appeared more warm and nurturing. My mother competed with me instead, and was always trying to look hip and fashionable. She just looked harsh to me.
Anyway, stressed over moving. My new landlord (very nice) said, "You can go get your boyfriend to put in some blinds and I'll pay for them." He just expected me to have a boyfriend.
Sad.
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