Posted by almondjoy on November 26, 2003, at 15:33:17
i just got a call that i was denied medicaid and my brain is whirling...i have 8k of debt from medical bills (all mental healthcare) and now the one clinic in the area that used to have to see everyone is going bankrupt and wont see if you if you don't have insurance, last time i only got to see my shrink cos i was medicaid pending but now....
im freaking out cos i only have 2 or 3 weeks worth of meds left, and i don't know whats going on. the caseworker said the medical review board detirmined based on my shrinks report that i can't get it based on a disability (does that mean my shrink said i don't and if so why would he at all? why wouldn't he say anything to me when i asked him if he mailed the paperwork? or does it mean the review board is schiesty and broke?) and seeing as how i haven't been able to work full-time (and get benefits) for the past 5 years how would i now? and will my social security disability checks get taken away now too?
its crazy that in one instant i was on a bunch of different meds, and docs changing my diagnoses every other month and for opening up to them i got stuck in a state hospital for months and then a couple years later after i learn a few things...get an apartment and car and stay productive by going back to school, and selectively sharing with my shrink, then all the sudden I DONT NEED HELP WITH MEDICAL BILLS AND MEDS?
i dont understand, and i dont understand why theres always something messed up going on...why everything can't be even and level for a long time. why as soon as im feeling like everything is ok then it turns to trash right away
i just started back to school, and barely go to class at all (my grades are great though) but my anxiety was so high by september i was ready to drop out so i started back on meds
i guess ill have to figure it out, sorry for freaking out i just don't know what to do
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