Posted by woolav on August 5, 2004, at 13:05:35
Hi, I cant afford to see a therapist, so Im just going to tell anyone who is reading this a little about my life. Here goes...
1. My mom married a narcisist freak when i was a teen. (he still controls my life and im 32)
2. My mom (who has a good heart) (i think/hope) LET her freak husband tell me what to do/think when I was 14 and hardly new him.
3. My mom abandoned me when I got pregnant and married at 16.
4. This was because of the extreme embarresment this caused for her and my stepfather :)......
5. But, before becoming pregnant, had asked Mom for birth control pills. She said "stepdad" didnt approve of birth control pills, so NO. Yet, they wonder why i got pregnant?
6. I ended up being trapped in a bad marriage from age 16-31 because I had no one/no where else to turn.
7. Finally had to leave my husband because he needed mental help and wouldnt get it. (he was paranoid to the point of having guns in our home and using night vision goggles to check out the neighborhood at night for intruders)
8. Had to turn to mom and stepdad for financial help when i left my husband. They helped. but with string after string after string attached.
9. Finally met a nice guy and just got married again. But now, my "parents" are involved in my life more now than ever and I cant take it.
10. I am thinking of moving away now. I dont care what they think anymore.
11. My teenage daughter says she would hate me if i put her through what my mom put me through.Well, thats the jist of it. I really do need talk therapy I think. Medication just helps me get through daily life. But I prob. need to work alot of issues out too....
Well, thanks for reading and any advise is always appreciated.
S
poster:woolav
thread:374380
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