Posted by Cass on August 8, 2004, at 23:10:11
Hi everyone,
Thanks to all of you who offered your support to me after a friend of mine committed suicide. Today was the first Sunday church service since he died, and it was very strange to look around the meeting hall and realize I would never, ever see him there again. I think I was in shock the first 3 days after learning he died, but after that I started talking about it and crying, and I have started to deal with it. Although it's still very painful. I wish so much that he was still here. It's agony to know that a sensitive, kind person suffered in silence and killed himself in desperation. I hope he didn't feel alone, but I know he must have.
He had so much going for him. What a presence he was. He was a creative, vibrant force. It's over now. Very few people around me know that I have been very close to suicide myself. I wouldn't tell most of them because it would traumatize them. Seeing the devastation of a suicide makes me resolve to try to find solutions if I ever become severely depressed again. I don't judge him. I'm sure he tried his best, but the pain of his suicide is profound.
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