Posted by trucker on January 12, 2005, at 14:55:42
In reply to strength » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on January 12, 2005, at 13:27:39
my strength comes from abuse and the LORD giving me what i needed to survive in the situation i was in. she figured since i was out of the sexaul abuse and physical abuse that i didn't need it any more. that i was too agressive in my ways. that i needed to DROP my gaurd. i am one rather than worring about something i confront that monster and get it over with. NOT violently unless that is the situation that i am in(violence). you don't want to be strong how i became strong. i knew (by my mothers mouth) that she didn't want me, (she had been taking birth control) and she reinforced it always, and she enabled the sexaul abuse and then after i was raped at three years old she would beat me cause "I BROUGHT IT ON MYSELF" she knew all the time. and as long as you were a boy child she would treat you well but us girls were abused and it would take me years to tell ya where i came from!! childhood is non exsistant in my life. i went straight to adult HORRORS.
trucker
///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////> What did your T want you to get rid of, your strong instincts? I don't understand that. I admire someone who can stand strong in the face of adversity. I wish I could. Unfortunately, I crumble very easily. You're strong, I'm fragile. I'd rather be strong. I'm sure everyone would. I think you will do just fine.
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