Posted by JenStar on October 16, 2005, at 21:10:31
In reply to Do you hate change., posted by lynn971 on October 16, 2005, at 19:27:16
hi Lynn,
Sometimes I get sad when i see change, too.When I visit my parents and drive down the street where I used to live, I see that it's getting older. The houses are more dilapidated, the sidewalks are cracking, and there is a LOT more traffic. The old businesses that I "know" have changed. The store I used to spend HOURS in is gone - and car dealerships have sprung up. :(
It makes me feel so ungrounded, so lost, like I'm just floating around without an anchor. I wanted to think of home as a stable base, not just in my memory, but for REAL too. I hate seeing my parents get older and sicker. It's scary.
I also hate being the "adult." It doesn't feel right! OK, I'm older...but not ready to be "the adult" person around! I mean, I DO think I'm smart and thoughtful and insightful and all that, but I didn't want to be THE one, you know?
It's scary. Sometimes I just want to curl up somewhere safe and hide away.
Anyway, sorry for talking about me so much. But I think I get what you're feeling...at least, I think I do. And I know there are people like Dinah who have suffered HUGE, roiling changes. Dinah, you're a priceless gem and a strong woman for being able to deal with all of that. Seriously strong.
take care,
JenStar
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