Posted by jammerlich on July 25, 2006, at 15:21:00
Today has been a rotten, lonely day and I haven't really been alone that much. I guess it's that I'm lonely for certain people in particular. I have a babble buddy who babblemails me nearly everyday. She's away on vacation this week and I miss her. It's sad not talking with her and it's just sad not to have babblemail. Then there's my teacher-friend-mother substitute. I miss her too. She's in town but seems to be unavailable. No emails from her today and she isn't answering her phone.
I suppose I'm feeling especially needy because I'm coming off a really hard weekend. There was a death in the family and I've been immersed in my husband's family. There's been a good bit of discord in the past and I haven't seen them in 5+ years. To make matters worse, my husband and I are splitting up and they know nothing of it yet. Talk about having to put on a show!! Anyway, I did great. I always do. And I always fall apart once it's over. That would be today. There's just not anyone to fall apart to. I guess that's where the lonely comes in.
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