Posted by hyperfocus on October 18, 2009, at 1:09:15
In reply to Re: I skipped my midterm, posted by Deneb on October 17, 2009, at 18:44:45
Deneb it's not you, it's your illness. You have a real disability - 99% of people would not even try to take university classes with a major illness. You're doing it because you like what you study and you want to do well and you have the capacity to do so much. It's your illness that's causing your problems
But I think you need to have an important talk with your pdoc. Tell her you're having major problems with school. This problem with motivation is surely your meds. I think Risperdal was making me apathetic, and I stopped it. You're on two SSRIS and an AP - all known to cause problems with motivation and apathy. It's a bad time to be changing meds but it sounds like you have to do it.
But more importantly you gotta tell her that you need more out of your therapy. Basically there's Real Deneb and Sick Deneb. Real Deneb has zero problems with school or work and can do pretty damn well. Your doc needs to be treating Sick Deneb and not pushing too much stuff on Real Deneb. This has nothing to do with you 'ruining your life'. You're sick and you're not getting enough treatment. It's difficult for other people to understand how drugs or illness can cause problems with mental functioning, but that's just how mental illness is. It's like telling someone with depression they should 'snap out of it' or 'stop worrying so much.' Sorry to say but your pdoc seems to be doing this, if she thinks you can somehow snap out of it or fix yourself.
I don't see anything wrong with asking for a retake. Worst that could happen is he says no. Maybe what you can do is get a letter from your pdoc just stating you're under her care and being treated for X and taking Y meds, and give it to your campus disability office or medical services.
Find out what options are available for stuff like midterms and assignments - maybe you can get extra time or a retake if you miss them. Just bring other people into the loop so you can get as much help as possible. But you gotta get your pdoc to understand that what's happening is not Real Deneb's fault.
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