Posted by smokeymadison on April 28, 2004, at 17:05:58
i only have one more week of this! i have 4 papers to write and 4 tests to take and i can't do a thing. i feel paralyzed. what have i done the past twenty four hours? let's see... i mixed vicodin and ambien (to sleep and for my hip pain--i tore a tendon)last night and wound up in the emergency room. i went there b/c i wanted to cut my arm rather bad (i did the night before). i just wanted the agitation and negative emotion to stop. they shot me full of avitan and sent me home w/ my boyfriend.
they said to never take vicodin again, so now i am on panlor.i spent today laying in the sun and getting my hair done-- a good $90 bucks i don't have. doesn't sound like a very productive 24 hours, does it? Obviously, i didn't make it to class. i have to snap out of this, and fast. but i have no idea how to do it. somebody needs to give me a swift kick to the head, or something. time is slipping away and i can't make myself give a damn about it.
i suppose i could just go to my profs and say: my head has turned into mush, i have been in the emergency room 3 times in the last week, the pain meds have knocked me off my feet, etc. one part of me thinks that i have a valid excuse for not being ready and for falling behind, but another part is screaming what a pathetic, lazy, good-for-nothing, never to be a grad student mess i am.
poster:smokeymadison
thread:341074
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