Posted by alexandra_k on December 11, 2004, at 21:04:54
In reply to Re: MY RANT, posted by alexandra_k on December 7, 2004, at 4:38:45
Time to go to bed
Time to go to bed
To curl up under the covers
And disappear
For a night
A day
A week
A month
A year
So tired so heavy
There is nothing to be done
I'd say I'd be better tomorrow
But I'd be lying to everyoneI can't do this anymore
The facade
The pretense
Pretending to be something I am not
Pretending I have moved on from
my family and personal issues
(to my credit)
But that is just so much crap.
I haven't moved on.
It is just that it happens in my head now
And nobody else can see it
My life is perfect on the outside
But why am I dying and screaming and hurting
so g*dd*m bad inside me.
It will never go away
How can it
I can never talk about it
How can I
there is a huge unbridgeable divide
Between me and others
Between me and other bits of myself
I can't close the gap
And I don't even want to
I just want to lose time forever
Why can't they just take all the time there is
Why must they torment me by throwing me back
A pancake not quite done
No no no we are not friends enough yet.
poster:alexandra_k
thread:425524
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/studs/20040420/msgs/427982.html