Posted by rainbowbrite on November 4, 2005, at 8:32:38
In reply to Confused and Depressed Graduate Student, posted by michellemybell on November 4, 2005, at 6:20:49
> First of all, hello to everybody.
>
> I noticed that no one has posted recently-maybe because its midterm times (mine are over thank goodness).
>I ended up not leaving :-)
well i posted a lot last week ;-D
> I am a first year grad student in an msw social work program. My B.A is in psych and I think I would like a psych doctoral program much better, but I was too afraid to because I knew I'd have to defend my dissertation one day! I think grad school is so-so as far as socially. I dont think I see things the same way they do. I dont usually feel this way, but I dont think they are that bright either--its just sad. sad, that is a feeling i know too well.
>I got an A on my first midterm, but the second one, i was so depressed, that i didnt even do it the morning it was due, let alone during the 2 weeks i had to do it. I know procrastination is so common, but i really feel its depression, because when i am not depressed i manage to pull out a great paper even if its the night before.
greta job on the A either way! It you think its depression you might want to talk to your pdoc about meds?> Of the few friends I have (im liked but shy) they dont seem to understand what its like to be depressed, or they tell me that there is no reason for me to be depressed and that i should just get with it.
Yeah, when i was really depressed I had a few people resond like that, its so kind of them...they really helped lift my spirits at the time *sigh*
>I really resent them for that, but i know its hard to know what depression is like when you dont have it, alot of people think those who are depressed are just lazy or something and its an excuse. It pisses me off that people think I'd spend most of the day in bed crying or just numb simply because im lazy?! Does anyone else experiences any of this--with school or friends?
a little, I havent really been that depressed in a long time but my ADHD brings remarks that are extremely hurtful. I heard some people in class talkign a few days ago about Lds, they said, "Dont you love how they have sugar-coated stupid" I shouldnt be so sensitive but, wow that was like they stabbed me in the chest. I gave them a dirty look. I know one felt bad but whatever he should!! I keep a lot of stuff to myself. In fact I keep most of this stuff to myself. A few friends know and I find their responses are not necessarily well educated and sometimes tehy say outlandish things. I just try to tell myself that they dont have the capacity to undersand what it is like. Until someone in their immediate family or themselves experience it they will never be able to have a full understanding of it. But lazy I get becasue of ADHD, lazy and slacker. there was this one person who i remember giveing me a hard time when I was depressed adn tehn they themselves years later went through a mild depression and apoligized to me!! Im sorry you are going through this. Try not to let people get to you. Could you keep it to yourself when you get depressed? Tell them you have the flu?
>Or is it just me? I dont know why, but I always say grad students as people who get everything done always--like midterms for that matter. Luckily my professor gave me an extension because he says he can tell im a good student and am not making excuses..nice guy! So I still dont know why im so depressed though, didnt sleep at all tonight..so, so lonely. Anyway, if anyone out there came across this and got through this post and can relate or anything I'd like to hear :)
You may be depressed. your prof sounds understnading, they may be suprisingly understanding in the future as well if you need.
I always thought the same as you about grad students but I think its is a myth lol if you read more on this board. it happens to everyone. Im not a grad student though.
Now dont beat yourself up over missing a midterm, K?
If I went around beating myself up for everything I missed...Id be in hospital with serious injuries lol
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