Posted by javableue on May 12, 2006, at 22:30:10
Back after much time; school has been keeping me. The day after choosing which university to attend (in a second language, no less...) is a poor time to get this kind of news. As is being in the middle of finals.
Wednesday, I received the result of my last Linear Algebra test and by my calculations, it looks like I've failed. My mark is a little above 59, so I suppose it is open to a "charitable" interpretation, but I really doubt I can count on that; the teacher has been very nonchalant with this course. The fact that I've had extreme difficulty staying awake in class doesn't help. I am not letting myself sleep; I can be actively listening, taking notes, and will still end up dozing off for a few seconds at a time. I really haven't been able to help it but I also can't deny that it must look like sheer laziness to my teachers.
This is not good news. I was told I didn't need this course to graduate when I bombed my first test and asked about it, but... I do. Due to the program I'm going into, I need to start in the fall semester. I don't really have the time or money for this. I'm afraid of failing again, and of the impact that failure is going to have on my (already questionable) confidence re: going to university and even getting a summer job.
I just need to vent, I guess. With everything else going on in my life right now, this is too much and I don't know if I can handle it.
jb
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