Posted by Racer on May 26, 2006, at 10:42:37
In reply to Re: Finals today... » Racer, posted by llrrrpp on May 26, 2006, at 9:27:59
I did hear from the instructor, and I got an A in the class, but a B on the final. I'm trying to relax about it, but it bothers me SOOOOOOO much. {sigh}
And it's funny you should mention the drug connection -- see, even as I was telling the instructors that I was struggling because of fertility drugs, I was also flagellating myself for making excuses, and that they'd see through me to the truth, which was that I was a weak, lousy student, loser, failure, etc. Psychopathology in action, huh? I don't give myself a break for those things.
(Mostly I do give some slack to others, but not in all ways. I used to tell my mare that she was entitled to feel lousy when she was in heat -- but she wasn't entitled to express it when it conflicted with my instructions. Then again, I also gave her a bit of a break when she was in heat. As long as she cooperated with me, I could cooperate with her.)
And the next math class starts in six weeks, the next psych class next Tuesday -- summer school, an entire semester in six weeks. Yikes! So, as long as I retain some of the math stuff, I may be OK. I have another chance to do well later.
I love the feeling of mastery I get, though, when I "get" the math. That's about the best feeling I can think of these days -- not doing well, you know? -- so not having it really was devastating.
Yesterday [was like a Hoover].
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