Posted by ClearSkies on October 12, 2007, at 7:31:47
In reply to Re: FELL OFF THE 'WAGON'...., posted by nolegirl23 on October 11, 2007, at 21:29:31
> > So a few weeks ago i did something really stupid while obliviously drunk, didn't remember the next day an dmy husband [of all people] put the pieces together. I felt ashamed, embarassed, and pretty much like a whore [so that give you an idea of what i did]...i then said good-bye to alcohol, something that has been with me for many year, through the good and the bad...i had to because i felt i no longer had any control of it.
> >
> > But i have replacd it with cocaine, and pills. Since I was 16, i haven't had a sober day...he;lp
>
> I know how you feel, I just fell off the wagon myself. I have been an alcoholic for 11 years (I'm 26) and I finally decided to go to AA and really try to get sober. I was doing SOOOOO well, and I gave in to temptation the other night.
> I KNEW I was going to relapse, I knew I wanted a drink, and I didn't do anything that I was supposed to do. I didn't call my sponsor, didn't pray, didn't read the Big Book, I basically said 'f*ck it' and started drinking. I called my sponsor the next day and went right back to the meetings. But I still can't stop beating myself up.
> I hate being addicted.
>
>We can hate our addictions but we mustn't hate ourselves - we aren't our addictions. Get back on that wagon, let the wheels carry you on. The program works if you can work it - but asking for help is soooo hard! Don't forget to post here or check in with each other, maybe with babblemail, for extra support, outside of the AA network.
OK, I'll crawl back under my rock now, bye bye.
CS
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