Posted by oldschool305 on December 14, 2007, at 8:16:53
In reply to Re: I did bad things tonight., posted by antigua3 on November 27, 2007, at 9:27:26
Thanks ya'll, yes I was definately replacing one addiction for another! For the past few weeks, I have been popping vicodin and valiums like candy, on a daily basis!!!
Then, I fell off the wagon and started drinking, not a lot, but I was mixing the pills with the alcohol. Luckily I have no money and no way of purchasing any more pills or beer. I need to steer clear of this crap, it's so hard. If it's not something with me, it's another.
The past few weeks of my pill popping adventure, I lost a friend of 15 years. She is also a fellow pill popper, severe one. We argued over pills, I wanted one, she was greedy and said no, we fought, she slashed all my tires in the middle of the night. She is now spreading horrible rumors to everyone I know, that I am a junki, blah blah blah. She's been on oxycontin for 5 years or so, xanax, lortabs, etc. I filed a police report on her the other night, police didn't believe me... they couldn't find the slash marks on the tires, it was 3am.. They are there bright as day but they were calling me a liar. I paid $140 for used tires, the towing company came to my house and saw the slash marks and said they were un-repairable..
I was also attacked a few weeks ago by another friend's boyfriend. He beats my friend all the time, they are what you can call "ghetto". Then he just went at me and started slamming my head on the floor and cut me up. I filed a police report, but dropped it because of threats.
All this drama in my life is caused by the drugs and alcohol and the people I surround myself around. I want to move away, I want a fresh clean start somewhere else where these people cannot find me. I am scared for my mother, and our house. I don't care if they f*ck with my car, but the fact they have threatned me and my mother has me thinking really crazy!!
I've been having SEVERE homicidal thoughts, and it's scary. I am trying to change my meds (I have panic/anxiety disorder). I am doing my best to sober up again, stay away from the losers. I don't want to end up in prison for life.
Anyways, felt good to get all this off my chest. I can't wait to start my new job in January, once my time is occupied, maybe things will change.
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