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Posted by terrics on December 29, 2004, at 13:34:03
Sorry I have not been around, but of course I am here for selfish reasons. I want to die, yet part of me doesn't. I know I need help, but pdoc is angry with me cause I put my 2 cents in about meds. (She probably is right and I am not).
I cannot call her again because I cannot stand her being angry at me. T. has always intimidated me. I have not gotten this low in a long time. If no one answers I will understand. I wish I participated more. terrics
Posted by thewrite1 on December 29, 2004, at 14:42:12
In reply to selfish reasons***poss. trigger, posted by terrics on December 29, 2004, at 13:34:03
I think you have every right to put your 2 cents about your meds, whether or not you're right. If your pdoc is angry about that, too freaking bad.
I'm sorry you're having such a rough go of it. Like you, I wish I could participate more, too. Most of the time I just don't know what to say. This time doesn't seem to be any different. Hang in there and know that you're not alone.
Posted by crushedout on December 29, 2004, at 15:22:06
In reply to selfish reasons***poss. trigger, posted by terrics on December 29, 2004, at 13:34:03
(((terrics)))i am the same often. can only be selfish. it's ok. that's the beauty of babble. lots of people share the weight.
you have been there for me before.
i wish i could help. i am in a similar place. what's your email again? you can babblemail me with it if you want, or just post.
Posted by rubenstein on December 29, 2004, at 18:00:28
In reply to Re: selfish reasons***poss. trigger » terrics, posted by crushedout on December 29, 2004, at 15:22:06
I am sorry things are going so badly for you. I think it is good that you talked to your pdoc about your meds...bottom line...noone knows your body better than you. Its a simple idea I guess but I often forget it when I go to see my pdoc. Please take care or yourself....
my thoughts are with you
rubenstein
Posted by Dinah on December 29, 2004, at 18:07:11
In reply to selfish reasons***poss. trigger, posted by terrics on December 29, 2004, at 13:34:03
You can call her again, you know. Anger isn't forever. I know that seems hard for some of us to believe, but my therapist gets angry with me sometimes and everything is ok the next time.
Why don't you try calling her and telling her exactly what's in your post? I'll bet she's not angry anymore.
And maybe if you find your therapist that intimidating, she's not such a good match? Have you given it enough time that you think it might be wise to look elsewhere?
Posted by daisym on December 29, 2004, at 19:22:28
In reply to selfish reasons***poss. trigger, posted by terrics on December 29, 2004, at 13:34:03
I'm sorry you are feeling so badly. No need to apologize. Glad you felt you could reach out here.
The good thing is not all of you wants to die. So listen to that part of yourself. Allow it to get bigger, "why don't you want to die?" is a good question to be able to answer. My therapist had me write a letter to myself about why I shouldn't do myself in so I could read it when I wasn't in any shape to think of those reasons. Can you write down a few things? He had me start with who would miss me and who I would miss and why.
I agree with Dinah, anger doesn't last for most people. Being annoyed a little is easy enough to get past for pdocs. I bet we annoy them daily! I think you should call, this might be related to medications. I do understand how devastating it is to have someone mad at you...I barely tolerate it.
The most important thing is to force yourself, FORCE YOURSELF, to go be with people. Talk on the phone at least, if nothing else. You need to reconnect to life, not isolate inside yourself.
Please hang in there. We do care.
Daisy
Posted by Fallen4MyT on December 29, 2004, at 19:42:01
In reply to selfish reasons***poss. trigger, posted by terrics on December 29, 2004, at 13:34:03
terrics you do not always have to talk it was just good to see your name on here..I missed you...I am sorry for your pain though :*(
Posted by Shortelise on December 30, 2004, at 16:43:50
In reply to selfish reasons***poss. trigger, posted by terrics on December 29, 2004, at 13:34:03
could you tell your pdoc that you can't stand her anger? Tell her what you've said here?
Hugs to you Terrics. I don't know about anyone else, but I do NOT care who writes and who doesn't. We all have different needs, different energy levels. ANd time, too, is a factor for many.
Take care. Writing out why you should stay alive sounds like a great idea to me.
Hugs again./
ShortE
Posted by terrics on December 31, 2004, at 0:15:29
In reply to selfish reasons***poss. trigger, posted by terrics on December 29, 2004, at 13:34:03
thank you all for your kindness. I do have to mention that T. would not let me out of her office until I spoke to a pdoc, then she made me call her for 2 days..all to her credit. She is intimidating though. pdoc was not angry. She was sick that day. I have missed coming here and hope everyone is doing well. Happy New Year!
Crushed, my email is: dogsandcatsmany@yahoo.com
Posted by gardenergirl on January 1, 2005, at 21:32:21
In reply to Re: selfish reasons***poss. trigger, posted by terrics on December 31, 2004, at 0:15:29
terrics,
You can post here for support anytime. There's no scorekeeping. And I've seen you be incredibly supportive of others, too.I'm sorry you are feeling so much pain right now. You have the right to put in your 2 cents. And your pdoc may also be right in her opinions. But you should always contribute to the discussion. That's the only way your pdoc knows what's going on.
Daisy's post was very good. Please don't be alone right now. Hang in moment by moment and think about what would stop you from dying. Hang onto those thoughts of what's important to keep you here. And lean on everyone who is supportive.
Including babble.
Take care, terrics. gentle hugs
gg
Posted by terrics on January 2, 2005, at 10:30:47
In reply to Re: selfish reasons***poss. trigger » terrics, posted by gardenergirl on January 1, 2005, at 21:32:21
Posted by B2Chica on January 2, 2005, at 15:27:42
In reply to Re: selfish reasons***poss. trigger » terrics, posted by gardenergirl on January 1, 2005, at 21:32:21
terrics,
it is so great to see you around. you've been there for me many times in the past.
your kind words and great understanding.
i am sorry you are in so much pain. please keep posting.
and NEVER apologize for wanting/voicing your opinion, you may NOT be a doctor but you do know your body better than anyone. and you have every right to comment, question or even Argue with others if you question what is in your best interest!take care please.
B2c.
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