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Posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 3, 2004, at 22:58:06
Hi all, I haven't posted in a long time. I recently had a bout with cutting. Dinah was nice enough to give me a link to great site but I've always gotten great advice from here. I haven't injured myself (other than last week) in a long time, and now I can't stop the urges. My dr. upped my Geodon and put me on Effexor, my prozac pooped on me, I'm also on Topamax. I'm not sure of my exact dx, I know I'm agoraphobic with some kind of depression maybe bipolar of some sort. I just don't want to keep hurting myself. I'm looking for advice to help stop these urges.
Thanks,
KL
Posted by Fallen4myT on April 3, 2004, at 23:12:35
In reply to *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help*, posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 3, 2004, at 22:58:06
Hi amd writing was a good idea and a good option..you can even journal to you or us....you can draw lines in red where you would cut....you can throw ice in the shower tub hard and fast...you can scream, punch things...take a baseball bat to a tree..unseen :) some people put a rubber band on their wrist and snap it for that pain,,,,sometimes scribbling hard on paper helps red ink too.....or gardening...digging in dirt...runninh, exercise,,,latch hook rug for someone ...keeps the hands busy..I posted a list and site once let me see if I still have the site with tips...HUGS AND STAY ON TYPE AWAY...HIT THE KEYS HARD
Posted by Fallen4myT on April 3, 2004, at 23:23:49
In reply to *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help*, posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 3, 2004, at 22:58:06
Posted by sienna on April 4, 2004, at 4:22:09
In reply to *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help*, posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 3, 2004, at 22:58:06
holding ice was very helpful for me ladybug. it helps me stay grounded. you can get those plastic water filled ones you freeze then its not even messy. or an bag of peas or a ice pack ?
also put your feet on the floor and push them hard on the ground and feel the floor because it helps you feel just the feeling and sometimes just feeling more grounded made me feel better.
mostly i did si cuz i didnt feel like i was real so these helped me. hope you feel better soon. i do understand.
sienna
Posted by Dinah on April 4, 2004, at 8:15:43
In reply to *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help*, posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 3, 2004, at 22:58:06
Do you think you can isoloate the *cause* for the urges? Fighting them is great and needed and necessary. But if you can understand them, you might be able to do send them back to where they had been.
How is your son? Could the Effexor be causing a mild agitation? Agitation nearly always causes me to want to SI. And Effexor was a big cause, for me. It made me feel itchy crawly jumpy.
Is there extra stress in your life right now? Are you angry?
I really commend you on trying to fight the urges, but what I wish for you even more is to have the urges recede a bit.
Posted by fallsfall on April 4, 2004, at 10:43:58
In reply to *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help*, posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 3, 2004, at 22:58:06
It's wonderful that you are trying not to SI. I know that the urges can be incredibly compelling, so if you *do* SI, don't beat yourself up about it. Just keep trying not to.
I'm with Dinah on trying to figure out what is driving the urge. Can you look at the time period when you first started wanting to SI again? It sounds like you did it in the past, but stopped, and now have started again. This COULD be due to meds (and it sounds like you are working on that angle), but it also could be due to stuff going on in your life. Did anything in particular happen around that time? Changes, fights, insights?
You might also think back to your previous SI period. Were you able to figure out what was driving the SI then? Could that be the case now?
There are different reasons to SI (to feel "real", to cover up emotional pain, to communicate pain, to have some control, and many others). If you can determine what your particular reason is, it might help you figure out what issue is driving this.
Journalling often helps me when I'm trying to figure things like this out. I try to just write what I'm thinking (almost like free association) and keep writing. Eventually I get to something that upsets me, and that is usually what I need to deal with.
Be nice to yourself (I like Ice cream, myself - and Tabitha is having an all day long online birthday party with (BYO) banana splits today!). Be patient with yourself.
Posted by Camille Dumont on April 4, 2004, at 19:46:11
In reply to great site with good ideas to help you, posted by Fallen4myT on April 3, 2004, at 23:23:49
Wo! Great site!!!
Thanks for posting that ... :)
Posted by Fallen4myT on April 4, 2004, at 20:12:33
In reply to Re: great site with good ideas to help you, posted by Camille Dumont on April 4, 2004, at 19:46:11
Thank YOU and glad it will help a few people :)
Posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 4, 2004, at 23:10:27
In reply to Re: *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help* » kamikazi_ladybug, posted by Fallen4myT on April 3, 2004, at 23:12:35
Thank you so much. And thank you for the site. I haven't had time to really go through it yet, but do plan on joining. I'm going to take some of your suggestions!!
thanks again,
KL
Posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 4, 2004, at 23:12:17
In reply to Re: *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help* » kamikazi_ladybug, posted by sienna on April 4, 2004, at 4:22:09
Holding ice, I like that idea. I just bought a really cool ice tray lol. I can break the ice inside of it.
Thank you for responding and your advice it is very much appreciated I knew I could count on babblers!
KL
Posted by Fallen4myT on April 4, 2004, at 23:13:31
In reply to Re: *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help* » Fallen4myT, posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 4, 2004, at 23:10:27
You are more than welcome and I hope they help as well as the site..if ya need more just ask :)
> Thank you so much. And thank you for the site. I haven't had time to really go through it yet, but do plan on joining. I'm going to take some of your suggestions!!
>
> thanks again,
> KL
Posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 4, 2004, at 23:17:30
In reply to Re: *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help* » kamikazi_ladybug, posted by Dinah on April 4, 2004, at 8:15:43
Your probably right Dinah, I do isolate the causes of my urges and have done so for years. My mother was a big trigger for me, but she hasn't been in my life in ummm 6 years. We had a run in about 3 years ago and it triggered me. Now, my sister is in contact with her, but we do not talk about her. There has been added stress trying to get a home equity loan, homeschooling my children (thats not an option I can change) and basically normal life stuff.
My boy is doing great!! He just got his orange belt in taekwondo. His feet still turn alot, but hopefully the dr. will clear him of another surgery. THANK YOU for asking.
I just started effexor this week, so it couldn't be the culprit. I am just trying my best not to give in to these urges. I am going to be as strong as I possibly can!!!
Thank you!!
KL
Posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 4, 2004, at 23:22:06
In reply to Re: *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help* » kamikazi_ladybug, posted by fallsfall on April 4, 2004, at 10:43:58
First Happy b'day Tabitha!!
Well, when I first starting SIing I was about 14 and don't really know why I did it. I guess I felt that I wasn't really loved by my parents. This was a way for me to vent my frustrations. My mom had a drug problem, dad was an alchohlic. Now, I love my dad to tears, and mom is out of my life. As I got older I would find ways to SI and felt that it "had" to be done. I didn't want to die, I didn't want to committ suicide. Does this make sense? I just wanted to si. I'm 31 now and it seems silly to be writing this. I am so ashamed that I've fallen back into this. I guess maybe deep down I'm still angry. Something else to work through :).
Thank you for responding and caring.
KL
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