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Posted by PhoenixGirl on July 21, 2006, at 21:33:48
I am considering cutting my wrists with my boxcutter. I just want to bleed to death and finally find some peace after 16 years of chronic clinical depression. My depression is interfering with my ability to work and there is no one to take care of me when I get this sick. I have no health insurance and will not be living in this town long enough to get through all the red tape to see the public mental health people. My sister is not speaking to me and my father told me today that my suicidal ideations were "dumb". I wish neither of my parents were living so I would not have to worry about the suffering they would endure after my death. They are elderly and in bad health, and I hate to put it this way, but they may not have much longer. But I don't know how much longer it will be. If I committed suicide, it wouldn't be a surprise at least, since I've attempted it three times when I was a teenager and have had shock treatments several years ago. Right now I know I'm going to cut my arm superficially so I can imagine dying and escaping from this hell. I'm not going to a hospital because I've been hospitalized before, yet look where I am now. Some people truly are better off dead and I believe I am one of them. Sixteen years of trying to overcome depression is enough to realize I am failing at it.
Posted by Snoozin on July 21, 2006, at 21:39:17
In reply to Actively thinking about suicide (warning: trigger), posted by PhoenixGirl on July 21, 2006, at 21:33:48
Please call 911 now. :( I wish I could help, but I'm not qualified to. I don't want to say something wrong that hurts you further. I've been suicidal too and nothing anyone said ever helped, other than this: I didn't really want death, I just wanted the pain to end. This isn't the way to end the pain.
Please call someone to come be with you. Please.
{{{{PhoenixGirl}}}}
Posted by Snoozin on July 21, 2006, at 21:48:21
In reply to Actively thinking about suicide (warning: trigger), posted by PhoenixGirl on July 21, 2006, at 21:33:48
I know we don't know each other, but if you want to *talk,* I'm here.
Posted by sleepygirl on July 21, 2006, at 21:55:25
In reply to Actively thinking about suicide (warning: trigger), posted by PhoenixGirl on July 21, 2006, at 21:33:48
I'm sorry you're in so much pain.
I hope you know we care.
You sound like you feel really alone?
((((PhoenixGirl))))
Posted by sleepygirl on July 21, 2006, at 22:13:44
In reply to Re: Actively thinking about suicide (warning: trig » PhoenixGirl, posted by sleepygirl on July 21, 2006, at 21:55:25
you don't know me either, but I'm here too
Posted by sleepygirl on July 21, 2006, at 22:14:14
In reply to Re: Actively thinking about suicide (warning: trig » sleepygirl, posted by sleepygirl on July 21, 2006, at 22:13:44
Posted by TexasChic on July 21, 2006, at 22:29:37
In reply to Actively thinking about suicide (warning: trigger), posted by PhoenixGirl on July 21, 2006, at 21:33:48
PhoenixGirl, please know there are people here who care! I care! Please, if you are really intent on doing something to yourself, get help! We are here for you. Post all you want. We don't want you to die. There's still a chance for things to get better. Believe me, I've been there. Its an illness. Its clear to me now that I don't feel that way anymore. Please give it another try. We'll be with you.
-T
Posted by Bobby on July 21, 2006, at 22:48:15
In reply to Actively thinking about suicide (warning: trigger), posted by PhoenixGirl on July 21, 2006, at 21:33:48
Phoenix Girl!!!
What could be so bad??? I know of the stuggles you've indured over the years, but please don't do any harm to my friend. E-mail me if you can. Did I understand that you're suffering from a love lost? I know there is no pain greater than the memory of past joy in present grief. Remember how good it felt? Just know that,in time, you can recapture that joy. Loves and jobs come and go but there is always another to catch you when you fall. Please just wait for life's redemption--it's there. You've known me for several years now and have faith that I'm not just blowing sunshine up your butt. I'll hang on with you if you like. Don't do this! Just remember what Winston Churchill said, "Success is the ability to go from one failure to another without losing enthusiasm." He suffered from crippling depression too. I just hope this passes with you intact.
Posted by Phillipa on July 22, 2006, at 11:55:37
In reply to Re: Actively thinking about suicide (warning: trigger) » PhoenixGirl, posted by Bobby on July 21, 2006, at 22:48:15
Please don't cut yourself call you doc and 9ll. You need to be in a safe place now. Love Phillipa
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