Posted by partlycloudy on April 1, 2005, at 7:04:39
In reply to Wavering motivation, posted by Racer on March 31, 2005, at 15:08:06
Speaking from a non-ED point of view, but as a out-of-practice alcoholic, I'd agree with n_m. I can't imagine that recovering from an eating disorder would be a straight line to success, just as my recovery to sobriety isn't.
I think that once your therapy can get to the point of starting to discuss the ED, that you'll find your hard work with the nutritionist will start to pay off. Right now you're only able to address the practical side of the problem - taking in enough nutrition so you can get to a healthy, maintainable weight.The doubts you have about keeping your motivation going sounds like the same reaction I might have - and it is exactly how I think about my sobriety.
Yesterday my p-doc offered to put me on a med that's been released to help with alcohol cravings. "What are the side effects?" I asked. Long list followed of unpleasant possibilities - and I said, thanks but no thanks. At this point I believe my stumbling block is psychological and not biophysical; that I have a lot more learning to do about why I do what I do so that I can alter how I react to triggers, etc. So I refused the offer of help from my doctor to stop the cravings I get. Was it stupid of me? Does it mean I'm in denial about my problem and whether I really want to get better? I don't think so. I'm *just* getting to a point where I'm able to take a closer look at why I do what I do.
Racer, these important steps you're taking can't be rushed. Don't worry that you're not acting in your best interest at the moment, because not all your support systems are in place yet. Your safety net is still being woven.
With best wishes and much love,
pc
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