Posted by llrrrpp on August 24, 2006, at 18:23:38
In reply to Re: Why am I weeping? » llrrrpp, posted by finelinebob on August 23, 2006, at 0:41:00
> Maybe it's because you're safe and loved, and being safe and loved allows you to let go of all the fears you've had to keep locked down so tight over all the years or else you'd be overwhelmed by them.
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> But now, being safe and loved, you can start to let go of them. You've survived them. You beat them. They can't hurt you anymore than they already have unless you let them, so just shed one tear for each one and let them go. It may be scary as you unlock them, but let the fear get washed away.
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> And smile because, being safe and loved, you've won.
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> Sounds like unconditional love to me, from your husband, or dang near it. Been thinking a lot about that lately myself. It's hard to understand because we live in a society where some quid quo pro is expected. But unconditional means "without conditions". Really. It's a gift truly given, so don't start adding up your "debt" -- there is none. Sounds like you want to give to him in the same way. Love without a scorecard. What a wonderful thing to share.Thanks flb, I think you're right. Is this what parents feel? When they look at their kids and don't want anything happening to their loved ones? I just don't get it. maybe I feel more love for husband than I ever felt for people in my family.
And phillipa and crazy Teresa and curtm, you are sweet too, for helping me see the happy side of weeping. love is love. no matter how silly (insane?) my reactions are sometimes.
I better talk about this with my T. I think it's kind of complicated, and I'm not sure how to interpret this. Also, I'm having a resurgance of somewhat negative self-esteem that is clouding a lot of my other emotions and feelings.Am I afraid of losing husband because I'm not *good enough* to get another great guy?
Am I afraid of losing husband because I'm not sure that I'm lovable? That he's smart enough to see through me and notice what a rotten person I am. (this is an extreme statement. I don't feel rotten at the moment, but I have been feeling this way more and more often lately).
Am I afraid of losing husband because I love him so much, and this is what healthy love feels like?
-ll
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