Posted by finelinebob on August 27, 2006, at 2:43:48
In reply to Feel like a loser because I am so cautious, posted by llrrrpp on August 27, 2006, at 0:23:45
> One of the posts responding to my Kernel panic referred to drug use in a funny way:
>
> She drank the Kool-Aid.Sorry, llrrrppyy, that was me using a favorite phrase of the Mac-bashers. We're in the Cult of Mac. We're living in Steve Jobs' Reality Distortion Field. We drank the Kool-Aid.
That's when you know you've been rejected and excommunicated by the M$FT apologists -- when they say you drank the Kool-Aid.
In the Anarchists' Cookbook section on Peyote, there's this quote: "The White Man goes into his church and talks about God; the Indian goes into his teepee and talks **to** God." Or something very close to that effect.
I've been around a lot of recreational drug use since freshman year in college -- my roommate was the dorm's biggest dealer. Amazing how much speed he went through for people pulling all-nighters. And how much of his profits he smoked away. But it did get us a really cool stereo system.
But I've also had family members with addiction problems, which is why I decided never to go down that path. Besides, I'm a very happy drunk, so alcohol is all I ever needed for recreation.
I've also never been so much of a prude, well, any bit of a prude, to get moral about it with my friends. Good thing too. When I was going through my 2.5 years of hell trying to find the right cocktail of meds, I went through maybe 7 or 8 very distinct states of mind, and all of them felt very real at the time. The one combo that put me in the ER eventually was the one I was most certain was "real". I think I've experienced more altered states of reality than any of my recreational friends.
But when I want to live trippin' vicariously, good or bad, I put on Quadrophenia (by the Who fer all y'all youngin's) and play it LOUD. Poor Jimmy with his four different personalities. "Schizophrenic? I'm bleeding Quadrophrenic"
Songs like "The Real Me"--
I went back to the doctor to get another shrink
I sit and tell him 'bout my weekends but he never betrays what he thinks
Can you see the real me, Doctor? Doctor?or Drowned--
I'm flowing under bridges and flying through the sky
I'm travelling down cold metal, just a tear in a baby's eye
Let me flow into the ocean, let me get back to the sea
Let me be stormy, let me be calm
Let the tide in and set me freeor Dr. Jimmy --
I'm feeling restless, bring another score around
Maybe something stronger could really hold me down
...
Dr. Jimmy and Mister Jim
When I'm pilled you don't notice him
He only comes out when I drink my gin0r 5:15 --
Magically bored on a quiet street corner
Free frustration in our minds and our toes
Quiet storm water, m-m-m-my generation
Uppers and downers, either way blood flowsBut there's always my favorite (next to The Real Me, and not just because it features Pete Townsend) I'm One --
Every year it's the same and I feel it again
I'm a loser, no chance to win
Leaves caught falling, come down is calling
Loneliness starts sinking in
But I'm one
I am one
And I can see
That this is me
And I will be
You'll all see
I'm the one.
poster:finelinebob
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