Posted by llrrrpp on August 27, 2006, at 15:24:50
In reply to Re: Feel like a loser because I am so cautious, posted by Meri-Tuuli on August 27, 2006, at 2:45:34
> I dunno, I wouldn't feel like a loser just because you haven't done any.
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> I've smoked and eaten pot and its quite nice but now I don't want to mess with my system.This is probably a good idea for me too.
> Anyway there are alot of different drugs out there so its hard to generalise. I would never inject heroin for instance. But is there so much different between ritalin and meth? No. In fact, Desoyn is the legal version of meth....
I'm kind of scared of doing something that will leave me vulnerable/incapacitated around a bunch of people who are also a little out of sorts. I guess that's why I'd want to have a friend there to babysit. I've been the babysitter many times. It's freaking annoying, really. And the psychmeds, well, I'm not on anything that is abuse-worthy. the AD would make me feel nauseous, the seroquel would knock me out cold in larger doses, and provigil would probably give me jitters with no known antidote.
> My brothers have done loads of drugs. I wouldn't do most of them (not because of any moral principle, just because I don't want anything to mess with my moods! And if you're taking pysch meidcation, you could easily overdose, etc etc etc). I'd maybe try meth/cocaine if it were offered by a reliable source.
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> Anyway. You still have the rest of your life to experiment!I guess one thing is that I'm not sure if I'll ever trust anyone enough to give me mind-altering substances. Well, except for my kind pdoc.... (((pdoc))). Not having that trust, that sense that I can surrender, well, I wish I *could* sometimes. Why do I always have to feel in control of every situation? Feel like I know what to expect? What's left when spontaneity is so undervalued? when life is prescribed?
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