Posted by ClearSkies on September 26, 2006, at 7:17:40
In reply to Re: Distortion » ClearSkies, posted by Racer on September 26, 2006, at 1:25:20
> CS, you know I think well of you. Do you think that I'm too distorted in my view? Do you think that I'm crazy? Well, OK, I am crazy, but you know do know that I am picky, right? And I do think well of you.
>Of course you're not crazy. You're clever and witty and beautiful.
> There is distortion here, of course. Depression does cause distortion, and it will make a difference in what you see in your mental mirror. Some of what you're experiencing is probably normal. My grandmother, at the end of her life, used to get a look in her eye when she sat by the mirror on her dressing table and put on her moisturizer. I asked her once, and she told me she never expected to see that old woman in the mirror. Behind her eyes, she was still nineteen.
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That is a great lesson you learned from your grandmother. My mom has always taken very poor care of her appearance, and assumes that someone who does take care is vain. So I feel shallow and guilty for being so preoccupied with my own appearance.
> Now, in my own middle age, I know what she meant. I'm not old yet, but I'm certainly older than I expect when I look in the mirror. It's scary, isn't it? That's not the face you expect, is it? (Although, think of this: I don't miss acne, do you?)
>Oh, no - acne is one of the reasons that I wouldn't wish to be young again. Plus the comments I would get about looking good from the neck down. Now that the below the neck stuff is getting larger and droopier, I feel that I don't heally have anything going for me.
> As for what you accomplish, each day, that really is depression, and hormones, and all sorts of truly sucky variables. I'm sorry you're having such trouble, my treasured friend. Your yoga teacher is right, you know. And even if you never know why I value you, I hope you do know that I do.
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> xoxoNow, YOU are a peach.
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